Where Do We Go From Here?

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     Today is pday which is why I am writing today and not Monday, but we got a lot to talk about. Yesterday we got transfer news and I gotta say that it was a curveball and a lot of mixed emotions. I'm staying in Alpine and elder Greene is leaving. It took me a while to come to terms with it and to be honest I'm not there yet. Elder Greene has been a companion that I needed and I guess that's what his purpose was for being in Alpine as he only did 1 transfer here. Me and him talked about how much we were going to change next transfer and push each other to do better because we let ourselves slip in Alpine, but I guess I'm left to do it on my own. I have really been crushed in Alpine, and have had some very long hard talks with God, and some very long talks with myself trying to convince myself not to just pack up and go home. Apparently I'm meant for something here and my work is not yet finished. I want to push myself to be the best me that I can possibly be this transfer, but an area like this makes it challenging to have discipline and motivation, and now having to relearn everything with a new comp will prove to be challenging. I know this is going to be one of the hardest transfers in my mission, but I'm ready for growth and I'm so ready for a stronger testimony because that's going to be the only thing that's going to pull me through these next 6 weeks. 


     This week elder Greene and I were going crazy so we left our area for the whole week to go on exchanges with our entire district and kind of bounce around. It was nice to experience some new things and new places and new people, and it was well needed. I haven't been the most honest with how things have been going in alpine. It truly has been beating everything out of me and pushing me to all of my limits. It made me realize how important it is to strive to be obedient and stay busy, because it's more rewarding and satisfying, and I've been slacking on my obedience here because it's easy to. Not to share someone's business or to judge, but I hear that my new companion struggles with that as well and other things that will probably be difficult at first to work with. I know that I will be able to love him regardless and help him in the best way I can, I'm just worried that it will bring me down as I tend to prioritize other people over myself and make sure that they are doing the best they can be, above making sure I'm good first. This transfer needs to be a good balance of both those things and that's going to be something I will need to learn as well because I need to start prioritizing my relationship with God and my efforts and commitment towards him before anyone else, like the oxygen masks on the airplane instructions. I'd be the type of person to take one for the team and suffocate but help everyone put their masks on. I need to put mine on first. 


     On a more positive note I'm hitting my year mark on Tuesday which is weird to think how fast time went by. To me it's just another day, but I'm proud that I did it. You're going to want to read next email update. And I also have the best people supporting me, something I'm still adjusting to and getting used to. I've made the best friends I've ever made in my life on the mission and I know that our bonds are real and will last. There's a line in my patriarchal blessing that advises me to surround myself with good righteous friends because they will make a huge impact on me and be life long, and I couldn't agree more. It's crazy to see the difference it has made in my life to have people that have the same morals as me surrounding me and helping me be the best. I've noticed it's helped me heal from a lot of things and let me let my shields down little by little and be able to be myself again. I'm grateful for all God's done for me and continues to do for me and my family. I'm going to need him. (as I always will, but more now) Well to wrap things up, I hope yall have a fantastic week and stay cute. 


-elder Jenkins 

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