Weak Week.

Morning everybody 


     Hope yall had a happy Thanksgiving, and stuffed your faces full of turkey and all kinds of good stuff. My Thanksgiving was really good! We had good food and it was just a nice chill day for us. I'm not going to lie, this week was a bit of a challenge. We had 13 people at the beginning of this week that we were actively working with, now we have 3. We dropped lots of people because they haven't been progressing or we just haven't been able to keep their interest. This area is uniquely challenging because there's so many churches here, and no one really cares to hear about ours. I'm sure I've said that a lot. We're literally in the lions den. But now that we have nobody to teach, that means we have to grind the rest of this transfer and find people. I've been kind of lacking in motivation lately so knocking doors all day doesn't really help, or get me excited. It would also be the 4th area where I've had to come in and revive it. But if not me, who else? I'm trying not to complain or whine or be bitter about it, it's just frustrating to see such a big loss and come to terms with having to start over. I probably won't see the fruits of my labors here, as with other areas. I've also just been exhausted and overwhelmed with being a trainer, being in a trio, and leading a district all with new areas because of our ward split. I'm just trying to keep it real and explain my situation so don't take it as me complaining or whatever, but that's just the situation I'm in right now. 


      So why? Why keep going when it's hard? I don't have to keep doing it. I could totally just slack off all day and chose not to go outside, regardless of what my companions want. I could just go home and finally be able to sleep all day, it's not like I'm being forced to be here. I've been thinking and reflecting about that a lot lately. There have been so many times in my life where I just wanted to throw in the towel, or give my problems to someone else, and not care about them anymore. The thing is, you can. I've come to know that Jesus Christ can, and will carry our burdens and problems when we can't. Are we willing to give them up? Or do we sometimes hold onto things because: "I can fix it" or "he can't help me with that." Am I humble enough to let God's plan for my area, my mission, my life, work? God's plan for us only works when we give it permission to work on us, and having faith that it will is key. Right now I'll be honest, I'm kind of checked out, I don't have much faith for this area as it stands right now, but I've seen how God used me to workout his plan so I know that he can do it again. I just have to be willing to let him take control. That's a lesson I've learned so many times, and it applies to everyone in any stage of life they're in. Are you calling on the lord to help you? That's something to think about. I'm still out here because I choose to follow God's plan for me, and his plan for me is to meet with someone who he's preparing, and God's plan for that person is to follow his plan to meet me. I just have to find out who, and where. 


      Well I'll get off my soapbox. I hope yall have a good week this week! 


-elder Jenkins 

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